Unemployment in California is my groundhog day. I am stuck in a self-loathing jobless existence while others around me go to work and retrieve a steady income. I am torn between enjoying the simple and unstructured life I have right now and desperately wanting something to do. I constantly question why I am trying to make a living as an artist. The limitations are too great, when I need a steady income I cannot rely on artistic expression in an already flooded medium to bail me out. And so I look for something else and try to figure out where is Now?
A decade has past, a war still waging, a planet ripped by pollution, and about 1 billion more people bustling and hustling. The beaches are smaller and more crowded. The highways are just fucking crazy. Kids have cell phones glued to there ears. State governments are broke and not paying their employees... Universities have become big dollar businesses, athletic fields are converted into dormitories, tuition fees rise... our wonderful educational system is more successful at creating consumers than crafting smarter and more creative Americans... requiring less and wanting more.
It takes 6 months to clear a head and 2 months to go right back to unfocused confusion. For the first time in my life I cannot find a job, which at a glance is pretty sweet. I get to sleep in, go surfing, play football, stare at trees and ceilings... think about the predicament I'm in... which is pretty tough, self pity is a shitty feeling... watch movies... hang out with the girlfriend, who is always tired from working three jobs... play with the dog on the beach... It has been 10 months since I've held a full-time job... ha, what the fuck?
In the interim. If anyone has any ideas for work... clue me in. I am a hard-working and fast-learning "doer". I am spirited and can offer creative input on a variety of topics. I have work experience ranging from Small-business Management to Zamboni driver . I have dabbled in the many disciplines of the trades. I am capable of lifting heavy ass shit and creating things on computers. I have a full service video production company with all the bells and whistles. I am an entrepreneur and refuse to work at a shitty desk job and watch my life wither away hour by hour. I like working at work and prefer daily challenges.
So in winding down the last days of this solar calendar year I will be one more broken hearted American waiting for MY bailout. Otherwise you will find me back on a trail or adrift at sea in no time at all.
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